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Put a little giggle in it!

Yesterday's blog was canceled due to some yumminess and symptoms. I made chocolate dipped big stick pretzels, with sprinkles! Who would have thought all this fun was so exhausting?! I started them last night while my family was still out, coming back from my cousin Collin's game, and then my aunt and I wrapped them all and tied little ribbons and it was fun. Today is the "fun fair" at Christian's school, and the pretzels will be sold to raise money, I love that. When I was in middle school and high school, I used to love to participate in that. I'm sure it drove my mother crazy, as I was always adding something to her baking list, but it always turned out fun, and we'd raise what we needed to raise, especially for important things like cheerleading uniforms... etc. =)

I had my first night of nausea last night! Ewwwwwwwwwwww, but I rallied and got a GREAT night of sleep and am back at work today! TAH DAH! Sleep is my hat-trick! Pour a little sleep on it, and BAM! The magic happens! Beauty rest is REAL! Keep this in mind folks! I know I'm going to be gangsta with my college students about sleep now, mandatory bedtime! I've been doing my own rendition of MC Hammer's "Hammer Time" to "Shower Time" to get Christian to take a shower, including a dance and rubbing my bum on him since he "stinks." (FYI: No children are harmed in this performance, it is solely for when attitude is given to my beautiful Aunt who takes on enough, and does not need brattiness added to the load!)  I am considering modifying this act to "Sleep Time" just because I know there are plenty more dance moves I can come up with for this. =) It'll be perfect. I foresee a YouTube video in the future.

 I wrote last time about my naughty platelets and how they were a little lower than anticipated, they also bounced right back up!!!! I went from 280 post-surgery, to 190 in last week's bloodwork, to 257 in my bloodwork yesterday. I swear, it's me being at WORK, it's WORKING! MWAHAHAHAH! (this was my mad scientist moment) Making me happy and healthy! My immune number is a little low (of course, we're kind of attacking that right now) but no problem, still in the safe range on everything, and today is day 19 of chemo! Woop!

As you might be seeing from the above paragraphs, I'm slightly hyper, or possibly a little batty at the moment. I blame the nap and coffee! =)

So, for those who know me, I'm very SERIOUS. A lot of the success I've seen in my short life has to do with the fact that I REFUSE to let my eyes drift from the prize, even for a second. Not only do I plan way in advance, but I have always considered everything I do in every day to be steps I'm taking to those goals, and so I am constantly in the pressure cooker. This has been my own doing, and it has brought both positives and negatives to my life. Part of what attracted me to Jason is that with him, I could be silly. He has always been able to stoke a laugh out of me, even when I was obsessing about the font on my last report, or how the margins didn't line up perfect: my normal "perfectionist", "detailed" (I make dotting Is and crossing Ts exhausted), "must be the best at everything" routine! What cancer has given me is a sense of lightness! Even when my "must not be late, EVER, or it means immediate death" tendency kicks in (doctors appointments), I am able to laugh within seconds. I feel lighter, like I'm laughing more, like I don't have to finalize the plans immediately, like more things are just plan FUNNY. This feels so good!

In the face of some of the most terrifying things I've experienced, my humor hasn't even considered abandoning me, it has instead jumped in head-first to save me from myself! One less thing to worry about!

Speaking of FUNNY... this is what I read yesterday while waiting on my bloodwork:



Waka... Waka..... Waka......

Which also brings me to one more funny thing:



This is at the University of Michigan, in the undergraduate library (UGLI), and at the Fishbowl. Moments like these prove why I bleed blue and gold!

Comments

  1. AnonymousMarch 4, 2011 at 7:35 PM

    I am sure that you have already been given an earful of suggestions but I'll give you my recommendations just in case. Try Hard Ginger Candies, dried ginger or ginger tea. They worked for me. Nate's Aunt has chemo treatments and she recommended it to me. I was also told lemon scented and/or flavored stuff helps. Like a lemon candle.

    Love you,

    Alecia

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  2. Liz Parker KuhnMarch 6, 2011 at 6:54 PM

    Hey, that is cool about the pathologist creating Pac-Man :) I work for a pathology site. And I've seen that UM video before too - too funny!

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  3. SaraMarch 7, 2011 at 12:43 PM

    Seriously....your mom's baking...is AMAZING!
    Sara

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