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Baby Steps...

So....

I'm seeing a chiropractor! I got to look at my xrays, and my back is MESSED UP. No worries though, I'm feeling better already. All that cracking and stretching works! Way less pain than I've had in years. Got a free massage today too!! =)

Erika, Jason's cousin, has been staying with us, going to the lab and working. It's been nice to have another girl around. =) Last night we got bubble tea! Yum!

I had a really hectic week last week with closing the buildings, but we scraped out alive and now it's eerily quiet around here. This week, it's only wednesday and I've managed to cook and clean up in the kitchen before they step foot in the door each night. It's nice to have evenings free again and spend some quality time with them.

My mom is going to be in for Memorial Weekend, and then next week Jason and I are heading to MI to visit with his family and then go to Shayrar's wedding in Pittsburgh. (Jason's good friend from high school). It will be our first time at a traditional Indian wedding, I think it will be fun!! =) I'm all geeked out and trying to figure out what to wear, etc.

Tomorrow morning I will decrease my Tegratol yet again! Cross your fingers for me, the first week I get headaches, a little more clumsy, etc. It's powerful stuff and keeps me almost seizure-free, but the adjustment period while weening has me feelin a little funky! I want to be off this, it's long-term damage to my body, especially my liver, is bad news. Tomorrow I'll be at 500mg daily. There was a point in time where I was taking between 800-1200mg depending on the day. So slowly but surely, I'm getting there! =) If I have no seizures this week I'll be good to stay at this amount for another 3 weeks and then try to go down again!

Erika mentioned "PINTEREST" to me when she first got here, so that's another thing I'm slowly but surely working on. If you need an invite, let me know, it's fun!! =) 



So, baby steps is the theme for now, and I still get to count that as PROGRESS, no matter how little. One less thing to worry about... =)
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