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Start with the end in mind!

So, What's up 2012?! Three, according to those who follow numerology, is my lucky birth number, so on the 3rd day of the the new year I will deliver, as promised, resolutions. AKA, my many many good intentions for the year ahead!

New Years Resolutions 2012
  1. Lose Weight, no amount designated, just looking healthy and happy
  2. Take Dance Lessons
  3. Learn Guitar, no really, do it already!
  4. Revisit Piano and Flute (brush up)
  5. Do Art or Crafty things once a week, NOT work related but for pleasure ONLY. Maybe check out an art room
  6. Sing more
  7. Do more things for Jason, like bring him gifts, cook dinner, pester him less... =)
  8. Expand my ITunes library and organize it
  9. Start my Bucket List (Hawaii and some more could be travel, could be tasks, whatever)
  10. Talk to both parents and Brett at least once a week
  11. Grow professionally (work on my bad work habits: staying late, talking too much, personalizing others not doing their part)
  12. Start ACTUALLY reading all those books I "want" to read and haven't gotten around to. This will definitely include some of the classics.
  13. Volunteer once a month on non-work-related causes, like the humane society or soup kitchen or YMCA... etc
  14. Keep a cleaner house, start by getting rid of the "junk"
  15. Exercise an average of 3 days a week (some weeks more than others). Exercise can be as simple as a walk, going to the gym, sit ups or stretching in the apartment.
  16. Write poetry again, write in general, keep my blog going, etc.
  17. Be more efficient at work, set goals of leaving each day feeling like you accomplished more than you expected instead of less, and consequently having to stay late or spend my freetime in the evening strategizing for how to do tasks for tomorrow. No more of that. Efficiency at work will equal more free time to accomplish this list! =)
  18. Educate myself better on cancer, read more articles, become familiar with the forms of research they're using, and know my options for medications, doctors, treatment facilities, etc.
  19. Continue to work on my will and make consistent headway. Change it as I change.
  20. Save more money, prepare for the future! (I want a house, a cat, eventually a puppy...)
  21. Speak sweeter, forgive easily, and love more even if I get hurt!
  22. Grow spiritually: have a past life regression, read more stuff about faith, consciousness and spirituality, speak more with my pastor, read the Shack AGAIN (time 6 or 7), continue to practice tarot, and find a Reiki community (I'm level two certified as a Reiki healer)!
  23. Get a massage at least 3 times, my back is a MESS!
  24. Learn to like to do the dishes
  25. Find out more things about the community I live in, like museums, parks, community events/traditions, restaurants.
  26. Keep in better touch with my friends and family all over the country, whether sending out emails, texting, and phone calls, or visiting!
  27. Go to more campus events for fun, like can I kiss you, the fashion show, etc
  28. Work on making every minute exactly what I want to be and what I want to be doing, whether career, with people, activities, etc. Don't let self-imposed obligation, guilt, or worry be the things that motivate my moments and days. 
 Ta-DAH! =) Attainable goals, and all things that will help make the year fulfilling. Better yet, plenty of time (a WHOLE YEAR!) to work on them, One less thing to worry about.

Goals in writing are dreams with deadlines. 
-Brian Tracy

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